How I am Doing

I emailed a friend and thought I would just copy what I said to her. This is what I've been up to lately...

I have been busy canning peaches, pears and pear butter! Yummo!

I am doing better than I thought I would. I definitely have my moments when the tears come and I just let myself cry…
Evening are the hardest for me and when I’m trying to go to sleep and I see her picture by my bed. I can hear her voice talking to me…maybe it’s just my way of pretending that things are still normal and that the last 2 months were a big nightmare that I will wake up from. It starting to feel a little more real now though. The two week mark was hard. I usually talk to her at least once or twice in a 2 week period so around that time I really started missing her. I broke down one night and just sobbed. I couldn’t calm myself down it hurt so bad. I don’t ever remember crying that hard in my whole life. Darin just held me and let me cry and talk about her.

Other than that things are good. Carson’s in 1st grade!!!!! HURRAY! I don’t seem excited, do I? I think I like school more than he does. Chelsea is going to a co-op preschool. Some of my friends and I take turns teaching. It’s a mother goose program. Really fun so far.

I have also been trying to exercise in the a.m. There is a spinning (cycling) class at the gym @ 6:00 am I know, early huh? But it is fun once you get there. Anyway, I was up this morning at 5:30 so I’m going to bed.